Sunshine, Lollipops and Rainbows

So camping was great. The day we spent on the river was the most fun I have ever had in my life. Chris thinks it is funny that I loved it so much but I'm scared of the LOG RIDE at amusement parks. Heh.

I would say that it is good to be back, but it isn't. I've been kind of down all week. Having camped for the past two weekends in a row just makes me want to live outside and coming back to my real life has been a major downer. I've been having thoughts of taking some time off work to drive around and camp/hike/raft/backpack/whathaveyou, and it really just isn't possible right now which gets me down. And then that turns into a general "What the hell do I want out of life" malaise. And then I think about whether or not kids are a part of our future and life plans, and I think "I can't have a kid, I am the girl that doesn't even want a DOG because it is too much responsibility". And then I start thinking about what we want to do after retirement (yes, I am only 28, get ahead of myself much?) and whether or not Chris and I will truly want the same things and because I am down to begin with I start thinking worst case scenario about everything and godDAMN I am just a fucking joy to behold.

So that is why I have been absent from the blog this week, because I have little to say that is cheery. I am, however, looking forward to this weekend and I think I will snap right out of my funk. Tomorrow I will be getting a stick shift lesson from one of my favorite coworkers (the same guy we went to Moab with a couple of weekends ago). I am looking quite forward to it because "learn to drive a stick" is on my bucket list. Then on Saturday we have plans to hike with John and friend of his that will be here from out of town, followed by dinner at one of our favorite sushi places with John and his whole crew. I have also started assembling my half-marathon training plan which cheers me considerably, because I really like running. So it's not all gloom and doom around here. It just not all sunshine and rainbows, either.

posted by Ami @ Thursday, May 29, 2008