Nervous Tummy (TM Tessie) Topic
I woke up today feeling officially Down. I slept late again today. I didn't feel like doing anything. I felt very "What's the point?" When I did finally get up, I checked my various computer accounts, even messaging a coworker, saying "Tell me something that will make me excited to come to work tomorrow". I was in A Mood.About a half hour later I got an email from John asking if we wanted to come swimming at Monica's awesome pool. Dude, I cheered right the hell up. That was exactly what I needed. Something to do that wasn't actually doing anything. We changed into our swimwear and packed up some beers and towels and started walking over. (Monica happily lives a block away from us.) We swam, hot-tubbed, drank beer, ate pizza, and played a couple of trivia games. It was a great lazy Sunday.
Honestly, though, I'm still in a funk. I know my own red flags, and sleeping late multiple days in a row, not caring about running, not feeling like doing anything, being reserved even when with other people, not wanting to even talk on the phone... These are all signs that point to Down in my world. I'm sure it will pass, but what causes these moods, and what can I do to prevent them?
I have a hard time talking about this issue in real life, because I'm so outgoing that most people don't take me seriously about stuff like this. I also avoid writing about it, because it is just WEIRD, especially because people I know in real life read this. But I have to start being honest about it, because I use my blog for posterity, and when I'm feeling like this I troll through the archives to find out just how long it has been since the last time, and I turn up empty-handed. Because I never write about it.
posted by Ami @ Sunday, July 13, 2008
10 Comments:
it's probably not much consolation, but i'm feeling EXACTLY the same way halfway across the world, AND it's oppressively hot here. hope it gets better.
Zac - Thanks, I know it will, it just sucks. I hope you feel better, too. How hot is oppressively hot? I'm curious.
Wanting to sleep all the time is a definitely Down sign for me too. Also, drinking more.
Dude, depression isn't a Nervous Tummy topic on the internet! EVERYONE'S depressed on the internet! Heh!
Hope you feel better soon.
Tessie - Dude, yes. Drinking more. Been doing that, too. UGH.
I don't know what causes these moods. Life issues? Hormones? The weather? They do suck, though. Maybe therapy would help? I am of the mind that everyone could benefit from therapy.
I am glad you wrote about this. Has it felt a tad liberating?
I haven't written about when The Funk Settles In, but I keep toying with the idea. It has been strangly liberating to have finally -- after four years -- been upfront with A. about my battles with depression. Luckily for me, A. knows this is a real thing and never tells me to snap out of it.
So - I won't tell you to snap out of it, but please try to reach out to Chris and others when you are Down.
Hang in there.
Jess - I don't know either. It is so weird cause all of sudden you snap out of it and you forget all about the Down times.
Artemisia - It does feel a little liberating, yes, but also a little Drama Queeny. Ugh. I don't know why I have such a hard time talking about anything real. When I do come out of it, it really does feel like just snapping out of it all of a sudden, but I don't know what triggers that. Thanks for the comment, hon.
They say alcohol is a depressant, ever consider that?
Anon - Yes, definitely. It's kind of a catch. When all you wanna do is go home and be lazy and drink a beer, that is probably the very time you should NOT be doing that. Thanks for the comment.
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